I have always been drawn to the sky from as far back as I can remember.

As a little girl I recall talking to the man in the moon on car drives home and trying to find shooting stars to wish upon. I would look into the day’s sky and work out what the clouds were trying to form and just watch them meander by.

The sky has been calling to me again the last few months as I get more and more into my spiritual journey. Sometimes I can be doing something inside when I feel that inner calling to take a step outside, and if I ignore it, then it turns into a huge urging that doesn’t go away until I do what it is telling me and usually the sky will put on a wonderful show for me – whether it is cloud formations, beautiful colours or rainbows showing to say hi or sun rays that always feels godlike and extraordinary. It is always magical and brings a tear of joy to my eye and makes me realise I am seeing true beauty at its finest and special messages sent from above.

The night sky has also been calling my name, especially as I get into the moon cycles and doing my moon rituals at the new and full moon. There is nothing more fulfilling than sitting under the moon, soaking up its fabulous energy and feeling the stars and planets give their own special brand of energy. The stars always feel like long lost friends to me as I sit under them and I always talk to them and thank them.

I was even urged to wake up at a super early time recently to go and sit under the sky when the five planets were aligned. At first when I was trying so hard to see them, I couldn’t – funny how that seems to happen. When I actually sat down and relaxed – they lit up and showed the path to take with ease and I was in awe and sat there drinking in the beauty and energy.

It is not always limited to the actual sky though, I am noticing that beautiful meditations that I am a part of have the stars in them, which just goes to show I am on the right path and they are there for me.

 

It reminded me that over 10 years ago, I did a little ceremony with some incredible spiritual people in Holland. A few of us sat out on a trampoline in the back yard and just centred and meditated for a short time to really focus and just allow. After that it was a matter of asking for the star that is yours and wants to be your friend to come forward and show itself. It was truly an amazing experience and I remember just how bright a certain star shone and seemed to get bigger just to say HI, it’s me!! You could then know that that star was always there for you and help you any way it can.

I would talk to this star, give my worries to this star and ask for energy when I felt I needed it. It was a case of having another spiritual helper out there for you. Funnily enough I had forgotten all about my star till a few months ago when I was urged to tell a friend to do this and realised how much I had neglected the star that shone so bright so I would know it was mine.

So now I speak to my star as well as the rest of the sky. It calms me, it settles me and makes me know there is so much out there that although you may not see, they are there for you in so many different ways.

Make friends with a star today and let your star become another part of your spiritual posse. Learn to look above and see the wonder and beauty that they are trying to show you – night and day!

 

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx

 

It is amazing how certain circumstances that seem completely random can all come together to bring something new into your life. 

Yesterday I had a wonderful Harmonising Session where you work on an issue to change the energy and vibration in your body and replace it with something that you want in a beautiful positive way. I for some unknown reason at the time, decided to work on my panic. I wouldn’t usually choose to use that as I know how much of a hold they have and that there are so many other issues surrounding it that it is just not a good idea to rock the leaky boat. So it was quite surprising when the words left my mouth but I rolled with them and went through with the session working on that. 

It was absolutely incredible and left me feeling so great, but not long after the intense panic started as if it decided it wanted to punish me for trying to get rid of it. I had another session with another wonderful lady a couple of hours later so was worried about how this was going to affect it and how I would go feeling this out of control with panic. As one moment I seemed to be okay and was able let it go and allow and then would be in a loop of panic I just couldn’t feel I could get out of.  

I am glad I decided to go through with it as she reminded me that my feelings of being unsafe and so forth were rolled up in the panic so it would be triggering those feelings inside of me too, not just the energy of the panic leaving my system energetically. We went through with our session, which is an incredible journey into your feelings in your body and doing some work around to feel, acknowledge and listen to what it has to say. We went through our session and after doing a different area of feeling, I realised the tingly fingers and lips that I get when I am in full meltdown panic mode were rearing their head so we decided to see where it would take us. 

I thought for sure that this would bring up the unsafe feelings but did my best to let that thought go and let it tell me instead. WOW! It started by looking at bit like Marvin the Martian from the cartoon shows, minus the helmet, mixed in with a bit of alien and glow worm of all things. It felt gruff, angry and closed off but at the same time felt incredibly old, wise and almost god like. I realised this is where I was storing all the anger I couldn’t ever seem to express in real life and once I acknowledged it, all of a sudden the green alien transformed into this old man with grey hair and beard who was carrying a staff and was wearing a white loin cloth. He felt quite feeble but that didn’t sit entirely right. The knowledge and power I knew was just bubbling under the surface felt incredible and completely at odds with what I was seeing.  

It got even more stranger when I messaged my Super J mentor about it as it had completely spun me out and she reminded me of the fact that I had been muttering about Druids, Wizards and Warlocks during my session with her but couldn’t work out why I was even saying it or what it was about, just that it was coming to me, that was when it clicked that something was going on here.

 

After that chat, I sat with what I was feeling, as I wasn’t quite sure if it was a guide, indeed God or one of my own archetypes presenting itself. Funnily enough Super J had given us a skill called body pendulum, only the night before in a Masters Class she runs, where you really sit in with the thought/question etc. and get your body (intuition) to answer for you by way of yes or no much like a normal pendulum. So I did this and discovered it was a guide and a very powerful one at that, and that he was only showing himself as a feeble old man so that I wouldn’t turn tail and run – smart cookie. 

It made me realise that sometimes the things we choose to run away from should be what we are stopping and turning towards, whether to get through what we are feeling to release it, or in this case, meet a guide who has been waiting to come to me and it took these intense strangely weird circumstances for him to be able to show himself and me to actually take notice of him. I am looking forward to working with him and already he has given me some awe inspiring information that I am still processing as we speak and the best thing? The overwhelming panic completely left after discovering him. Maybe next time you think to turn and run that other way, when something feels to hard or you really don’t want to deal with it – perhaps it is time to pull up, turn and see what it has to say to you, it just may surprise you.

 

Till next time…keep walking your spiritual path xx

 

 

 

 

I realised the other day that I have been neglecting some of my guides recently as I charter new waters in my spiritual development. So I decided to do something about it the other night.

 

I always like to invite my chosen guide forward to pick an oracle deck and then choose cards and tell me what they want to say about them, then I start auto writing. I find it easier to start that way as it makes Ego take a back seat and it gets the writing going a lot quicker than just sitting there and asking what they want to tell me without much direction. That does work, especially when I may not have been listening to them, but overall I like to start with the cards and lead in to the revelations I usually get when I speak with them. Plus I just love oracle cards so it is totally a win win for me.

 

I decided to call upon my guide Pip as I hadn’t used her in so long that it just felt right to get that connection going and letting her know that although I hadn’t worked with her much, that I still loved and appreciated her. All of my guides understand that they have taken a step back at the moment but it is still nice to have one on one time with them for nothing else but that connection and of course any wisdom they want to impart.

 

Pip is a wonderful gypsy looking lady who helps me with tarot and card reading interpretations and is there for all my Clair senses (Clairvoyance, Clairsentience, Clairaudience, Claircognizance) as well. She has this wonderful fun sense to her, she really is infectious and it is just such a treat to sit in her energy.

 

A big part of the reason why I wanted to pick Pips brains is that I had an upgrade (or calibration as my spiritual team like to call them) and my nose has become really sensitive to smells. Even more so than usual, so being my Clairs expert, I wanted to know what she made of it. It was really enlightening and exciting to hear that I will be using my nose, he he sorry I always imagine a cartoon dog sniffing the ground on a mission at this point, to help with the medical intuitive side of me. Being able to sniff illness, disease and so forth will help with the healings I am incorporating into my spiritual business.

 

It was fun to be able to talk about my Clairs with her as I had kind of been ignoring them to be quite honest. So we had a play and talk and she assigned a certain smell to her so that when I smelt it, I could recognise that it was her. My true self has a very different energy to most so sometimes feeling them near me, isn’t enough for me to always know who exactly it is straight away as I don’t feel it as intensely as some may.

 

Then the next night when I was having a bit of a moment before falling asleep, I smelt Pip’s smell and felt so proud of myself for smelling it and realising that she was here for me. It made me feel great as well as less alone as I got her to help ease what I was feeling and let me know if there was anything I needed to know about it.

 

Now that I have started reconnecting with my guides, I cannot wait till the next session I have with them and I can get some one on one time with another of my fantastic guides.

 

Do you take the time to spend some quality time with your guides? If so what activities do you like to do with them?

 

Till next time…keep walking your spiritual path xx

 

I went to visit my naturopath today and she asked how much anxiety and panic I was having and it led to a really interesting discussion when I mentioned that I find the deep breathing techniques that are taught and meant to calm you down, in fact sends me into more of a tizzy as I feel I hyperventilate even more and it seems to extend my panic attack out even more. I thought I was a weirdo for feeling this way, how can something that people swear by, not work for me??? 

It was when she told me that panic usually occurs when your body is over oxygenated that it made sense why deep breathing once I am in that cycle wasn’t working. The best thing that I could possibly do to myself when I was in it, was to get carbon dioxide back into my system to level my body out.  

There are a number of ways you can do this – through holding your breath for a moment, breathing into a paper bag or if one isn’t available breathing into cupped hands or similar so you are breathing in the same air you just expelled. The thought of holding my breath really doesn’t sit right for me so I have grabbed some paper bags to have in my handbag and car and if I am in too public a place where I may look a bit strange using the bag, I will use my cupped hands! And only look marginally less weird for doing it!! You don’t need to do it for long – from a few seconds to a few minutes, depending on the attack, (you will know how long it is necessary for)  just enough that the major eye of the cyclone has passed and you can start to rationally introduce all of the coping mechanisms you have been taught to get yourself through it. Don’t overdo it, it is literally just a quick moment to get you levelled out and back in the drivers seat again.

 If you do suffer and have always felt the usual breathing techniques just do not work for you, give it a go. I know it has brought a huge light bulb moment to myself and I cannot wait to see the changes this will help bring. Not only when I am in a panic, but also knowing I have it in my arsenal of tricks to help pre-empt an attack in the first place. If the bag of tricks that you are already using works – then by all means keep going with that. I just know myself that the deep, slow, counting type breathing just does not work for me.

Now don’t get me wrong, there are numerous fantastic breathing exercises that can help calm you before a panic attack strikes. This is for when there is a point of no return and you are in the dizzying fun-ness of an attack and just can’t seem to find your way out of it. It may not be for everyone, it may not work for everyone. There are many amazing techniques out there that seem to work for one and not for another so it is finding those techniques and coping strategies that are right for you and you alone. For me, this makes sense and helps.

 

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx