I colour in hearts for value, money – anything that comes into my life of value that I can thank the universe for and be so so grateful for and track to bring even more abundance into my life. It could be a drink bought for me, a talk I watched that provided some great insight, finding 5c on the floor – anything and everything!!
It was during one of my master classes where we were working on mindset and language around money that I had a big aha moment about this seemingly wonderful act that I was doing.
You see, when I colour in those hearts, say it was dinner bought for me for $50, I would colour in a $10 or maybe go up to a $20 heart, even though that particular item had a clear amount to it. I would downplay it each and every time, no matter what I was colouring in for and whether it also had a clearly defined amount like this dinner, I would do this.Every single time without fail.
It then really got me thinking during that session and just like that the big aha came when I realised I do that in other areas of my life. I downplay myself like nothing you have ever seen. Be it as myself, in my business and so forth. It really was a big slap in the face to see a pattern playing out, which really hasn’t got a huge connection until you follow the wispy line from point A to point B. I mean who knew those pretty coloured hearts could have such a huge meaning and lesson behind them and that that would be what gave me a huge insight in how I show myself and pretty much be in the world.
By downplaying myself, I was always dimming my shine, my talent, my knowledge and that is kinda what I wanted sub-consciously as the thought of being in my full power, of being successful and amazing is frankly, scary as shit. I have been working on this and dipping my toes in, but until that light bulb moment, had never seen it in full colour like that, in different tasks that I wouldn’t have connected the dots too before now.
Being made aware of this, really made me start to not want to downplay anymore, I mean, who am I to dim the light of my own soul?? Who am I to say oh no our purpose here is a bit too scary right now so let’s just carry on as we were for a while longer?! This got me saying a big HELL NO!!! I don’t want to be this anymore and I am quite happy now to step into my role. It may take little baby steps, but baby steps are much better than snuffing out the flame entirely for big moments at a time.
So now I embrace those freaking hearts and give them the amount they so deserve and that I deserve to have, because I do deserve that $50 dinner, I do deserve that free session I got, I deserve every single heart that is coloured in here and more! The universe wouldn’t have provided it if I wasn’t. And I am so ever grateful and feel the joy of that abundance deep in my heart every time I grab a colour to start. It made me realise that if I don’t want further abundance to be downplayed in my life, I had to start giving it the true value it deserved.
I am also allowing myself to shine brighter each day, to highlight myself rather than downplay what God gave me in this once and only lifetime. I no longer want to squirrel it away, wasting such precious life when I could be doing something amazing with it.
Is there habits in your life that may seem insignificant that may also give you a big aha moment? Take a moment to think about it and join the dots… Feel free to share if you get any ” Oh my Gawd” moments 🙂
Till next time…keep walking your spiritual path xx