Feels like a Dear Diary entry

I am a Guardian Angel and part of my ‘mission’ is to talk about Angels, yet if you were to look at my posts and so forth – you may be hard pressed to know that about me. Don’t get me wrong, I still, I guess bring that Angelic energy of mine to anything I write and say but it isn’t always the same.

I sometimes look to those that are known as the expert and I kinda non angelically say to myself, Hello, you want an expert (while waving my arms in the air) but how the hell is anyone to know??? Face palming at its finest.

The last couple of days, I really got to thinking why or what is lurking in the background to stop me from jumping into my full potential…

 

To start really delving into the topic of Angels means that I am doing part of my purpose, which means stepping up and out and having all that brings with it… Am I ready for that, I keep telling myself yes but hey looky here – she is still talking about everything BUT Angels!!! So clearly the thought terrifies me still. But really who am I to deny those that want to read my stuff? Who am I to deny myself and my family to not write about them.

It is also deeply personal for me. It is my family after all who I am talking about and in some way, I kinda want to keep that for myself. They are so deep and meaningful to me that I just want to hold onto them for myself just a little longer. It also means delving and discovering things that am I ready to see/hear/feel? Clearly not.

Sharing also means gathering as above which makes my little ego warrior stand up tall and go pfft like what your saying is right or anyone wants to hear. And while my gorgeous little ego warrior is a bestie nowadays, she still makes me cower a little when things like that come out and makes me want to go you are totally right, lets just leave this awesome knowledge deep inside and keep living small. Problem with that is there is no way that can happen any longer – so a little tug of war starts between my soul and my ego warrior. Which is super awesome (sarcasm included).

Another thing that comes to mind is so many people have Angel something or rather in their title, and talk about Angels non stop- which makes me not want to join the masses. Like at all. But then I remember that we are all different in our own unique way and all amazing in our own way so who cares right? It is the same that we are all men or women, we carry that same title but when it drills down to it, we are all totally different. You get the idea anyway.

Most of all, I want to do justice to my family. Even thinking about how strong my connection is now, is bringing tears of joy to my eyes. Will I do them justice, will I make them proud or will God sit up there thinking ‘Why in the hell did we send her down for’ (totally said in my ego warriors voice of course). The only way I will not do them justice is by NOT talking about them.

So this is me taking that first step in talking about them and really making myself accountable. This is me honouring my souls plea to not necessarily start but to keep moving along that path, just a bit more. To start uncovering the layers within to reveal the memories and getting help from the fam when needed to start bringing you more about Angels and plenty of other stuff as well. And also for myself, sometimes our purpose for others is exactly what we also need.

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx

 

Pure love – do you need some?

​I don’t usually publish what I do on my Facebook page or my services here but I’m really feeling the call too as they really want this getting out to as many people who need it as possible! Sooooo….

HOLY AMAZEBALLS!!
The Angels and I are super duper excited to bring a new Healing Meditation to the world! Introducing PURE LOVE! 
Now I’ve been talking all this week about choosing yourself, choosing love over fear, loving yourself but it’s not always easy and sometimes you just need a little helping hand to boost you into the love stratosphere!
So what is about? 
It’s about filling your love tank up – with pure love from the Angels and universe, to feel love for yourself and others, to see, be, hear and just plain old BE love! 
And because we want it out to everyone who needs it – it is going to be only $5 AUD to begin with! That’s like the price of a cup of coffee!! Or a block of chocolate in my case 😊 
So if you’re needing a little loving or just want a lil boost because you’re already pretty fab at the love stuff – grab it at this crazy price! 
You can pay here and just pop your email in the msg/notes section and get it delivered straight to your email 
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Conditional Commitment

I had one of those moments last night and this morning, you know where you completely blow something out of proportion, or take something to heart – in other words be completely human!

My partner came round last night and I have been doing some huge soul searching around our relationship the last few days, so I am guessing that added to my vulnerability. And funnily enough every ‘solution’ given to me from myself and my spiritual pit crew went way to the kerb and I reacted like I wasn’t the evolved being that I am.

You see my partner has been a cranky pants of late, moaning, groaning and being negative about everything and anything he can get his hands on. And it gets me frustrated as I pick up on it and decide to join him in the negative nelly ranks rather than find a way to either ignore or pick him gently up and bring him over to the light side.

The nail on the coffin last night was when I finally gave him a beautiful poem I had written for our 9 year anniversary but hadn’t had the guts to give him till this moment. A moment of which was already feeling pretty down in the dumps (such good timing on my behalf!) It bared my soul to him in the ways in which I would always choose him and us and yet when I asked him if he chose me in return, and he made a joke about it – in that moment I chose to react badly (think little girl pout and all) and not choose him in that moment at all.

It continued to this morning, even after he left, in which he gave me a beautiful goodbye kiss (which I chose to kinda ignore) when I started checking my phone for all the wonderful positivity etc stuff that I have come up on my phone.

Funnily enough there was a new Youtube video by Brad Yates – Tapping extraordinaire (if you have never used his vids – go check him out, he is the best). All I could see on my phone was Conditional Commitment, and I realised in these petty moments I have been having, I was indeed choosing to only commit to my partner if he said the words back, if he acted like I wanted to him to act, the list goes on. The weirdest thing? The tapping video was about conditional commitments on your to do list – in other words, nothing to do with my issue and yet it helped me in such a profound way to get out of my head and into my heart. And had the added bonus of being the perfect video for me, as I also have an issue with procrastination sometimes, so it was a big double whammy, and after doing the vid I have knocked out two blogs, so thanks!!!!

Now back to the issue at hand…

Don’t get me wrong, I needed to feel these emotions and feelings, no matter whether they were the whole truth or not, but I also needed to take a giant step back after it and look at it properly and not from my hurt self.

No one is perfect, I surely am not (although I am imperfectly perfect J) so why was I seeking out perfection in my partner? Why wasn’t I taking him for what he is at this point in time, and only concentrating on how to not let myself get caught up in his feelings. Because me changing myself and my mood because of him – that is ALL on me, that is my issue and not his at all.

So now I have taken a step back from my woe is me state and realised some things. 1. It is time to let my love be unconditional 2. He shows me chooses me all the time in the actions that he does and sometimes says – it is my problem if I choose not to see them or acknowledge them when I am in a mood 3. There is some work to be done on my boundaries and way of being, so that I am not swayed like this from anyone. There are more but you get the drift.

So next time something happens around your relationships, feel the grrr, then take a step back and look for the lessons. I promise you that you will find them and grow from it.

I surely have, and now it is time to send lots of love to my man AND practice what I preach.

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx

Be careful what you wish for…

I know all about law of attraction, manifesting etc. but it is funny how you can still get slapped upside the head and go OH I created that into being!

There has been so many times looking back on it that it has happened, as with us all but it can still make me chuckle how we seemingly put things out to the universe and in a weirdly roundabout way – there is what you thought of!

Now it can be random… For example – I used to have that envious hair where you didn’t have to wash it for days and it still looked freshly washed. When my body went through all of its changes, it started getting super oily all the time, like all the time and I used to think wistfully back to those days where I didn’t need to wash my hair all the time. It was never even a conscious thought, I never said I wished it was like that but sometimes just thinking of something is plenty. I then got super bad eczema that affected my hair and scalp – I am talking hair loss and the works. Of course I would curse it and had a brief why me moment and then in giant neon lights it came to me… I had created this. Was it how I wanted it? Oh no way BUT they took what they could and created the reality that I was wishfully thinking on.

I just had to chuckle and accept responsibility for the amazingness of my manifesting skills… and remember to not get caught up in those wishful thoughts.

Now of course you cannot always help them, we are human beings after all, but you can make a conscious decision to stay aware, to curb them when you notice them and give the powers that be a heads up that actually that is not what you want at all! And go about giving a thought, create a vision of what you actually do want!

So many times we focus on the bad and wonder why we keep getting more of the same in our life… unfortunately like attracts like so we need to be making sure that we try and stay on the positive path as much as we can.

It doesn’t mean shoving down those negative type thoughts or emotions, it is best to acknowledge, write them out so you can see where you are coming from with them, but is also so important to thank them and send them on their way as they really have no place being in your life.

I even remembered a moment when I was younger when I was thinking on this blog, yep it has been one of those, I will get to it at some stage ones, where I was young, really young and creating a house in the bush at the end of our backyard, you gotta love good Aussie backyards for that. And I remember getting annoyed and wishing that a grass tree was not where it was. I even asked my stepdad if we could move it or get rid of it, because you know it was just ruining my house!

I went to bed and woke up the next day and the grass tree in question was kaput – it looked like it had been hit with lightning or something and boy oh boy did I get in trouble as my parents thought that I had done it myself. It still totally puzzled me until I went to write this post and realised I had manifested that, because I was totally adamant that it needed to be gone, sorry grass tree 😦

So the moral of the stories is, it doesn’t matter if it is a fleeting thought, a long drawn out thought or one in between – you can manifest it, or something very bloody similar.

Start being more mindful, stop those ruminating negative thoughts, or what if thoughts or past thoughts and learn to be able to say “My bad, ignore that last request – this is amazingness is actually what I want”. It is always a work in progress but by becoming aware of it happening can start turning your life into exactly what you want rather than what your ego centred thoughts have manifested!

 

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx

 

Rearview Mirror

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Spider showed me today about the joys and need for looking in your rearview mirror.

 

It is so important to see where you have come from, how far you have come, what you have done.

 

We get so caught up in chasing the next thing, not being happy where we are at, needing to know what is coming – that we forget the simple pleasure and need to see just where we have come from.

 

It is not an exercise in beating ourselves up, if you have only come a tiptoe forward, that is okay. If it has been a side shuffle kind of time lately, that is also okay. If you have come forward in leaps and bounds, that is so okay as well!

 

Having a check back in with yourself can be really handy to see that actually you have done more than you thought, you have managed to do that etc. For me and this photo came at a time when I was driving (don’t worry I took the pic when I had stopped) and feeling like I needed to do more, like I was a bit stagnant – you get the drift. Then spider came crawling all over my rearview mirror and I decided to ask – okay what do you want me to see here, as spider has been coming around more and more lately and I asked spider nicely to stay on the mirror where I could see as I am trying to get over my creepiness of spiders.

 

So as I was driving, I let me mind wander and I realised – I wouldn’t have been able to do this driving 6 months ago, when I was locked in an ego battle of the mind. The quick shop I did just before driving, also wouldn’t have been possible only a few months ago. I wouldn’t have been able to ask this question and get this answer some time ago. So in looking back, I could see all these amazing achievements that I have done, and looked at the stuff I didn’t do so well to ask myself okay, what can I do differently? Is there a way to achieve that or do I let it go and be at peace with it.

 

If there is something that you didn’t do, achieve, be etc. when casting your mind back – be okay with it. Again this is not a beating up session, but a pat on the back session, and a look at okay what I can do differently. It is being at peace with yourself because even if you feel that you didn’t get somewhere you wanted to – you have evolved enough now to see it for what it was, to curiously check it out, rejig it a bit, have it as a new goal, or let it go. Whatever you decide to do with what wasn’t so great – You need to be at peace with it. That is a way to move forward, and something you can give yourself a fist bump for. Not something else to beat yourself up over and wallow in.

 

When you look back, you can see just what you have accomplished – from the very small things, to the big life changing things, they are all worthy of your celebrations.

 

So today spend a moment reflecting. Feel the joy and celebration of it. Fist bump and clap yourself on the back for a job well done. Because it is a job well done. No matter what the reflection is going to show, the fact that you are standing up and doing this exercise is awesome within itself and shows growth of an epic proportion.

 

Remember you create your own web in life, so you can choose to make it as good or as crap as you want to.

 

See your magnificence, see your courage and most of you… See YOU!

 

You are AMAZEBALLS.

 

Happy reflecting

 

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx