It is funny, life events, happenings and all the frills life has to offer us – usually means that I have so much inspiration to write from, to think and feel.
Lately though, even though there has been much happening in my life, I just haven’t felt that tug, that aha and rush to the keyboard so that I could get all that I was thinking and feeling down before it left the building. Nothing at all, nada zilch and I haven’t pushed myself to try… until now.
While I am not ready to put into words some of the stuff that has been going on, I am ready to step back out into the world and acknowledge.
And all I can say is this. Things can get overwhelming, whether it be because crazy shit is going on, amazing stuff is going on, whatever it may be, it can still get a little much at times. For anyone. So I tell you this.
IT IS TOTALLY OKAY!!!! Now I have probably harped on about this before, but it bears repeating. Whatever and wherever you are right now, in this very moment – it is totally okay. If you are close to a nuclear explosion of epic proportions, or your awesome sauce jar is ready to spill right over – it is all cool.
Feel that shit, let it settle into your bones like a second muscle, let yourself feel where it is sitting within you, where it makes you feel fucking amazing or where it feels you are about to cough up your very own giant furball. Just feel it. Allow that to simmer, roll in it, swim in it, use it as a deodorant. Do whatever you have to do to let it LIVE. That is all it wants, to be felt and let live, if only for a short while. To maybe whisper a story in your ear, or paint you a vivid picture – let it.
Now take that story or picture and really look at it. Maybe it is telling you an old story of what has been, heaven forbid what may be or are mash up of the both. What is it trying to tell you, show you?
Again, really feel whatever is going on. If it is bringing up past stuff, see how it relates to today, I am sure somehow in feeling, it is exactly what you are feeling now. Let it all show itself, in however it needs to. I can tell you sometimes at first glance you cannot begin to understand how it relates but dig a little deeper till you get that deep aha sigh of relief.
Then it is time to take a step back, get yourself, when you know it is time, and only you can be the judge of that, to step back and look at it without all the emotions, feelings and yourself clouding your judgement. Look at what you need to do, if any to rectify, change, accept, let go of. You name it, you may need to do it. And it doesn’t need to be an instant, snap your fingers and it is done kind of thing. It may take time. It may take a few moves back on the path to what you have chosen to do about it before you get to the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow.
But by honouring, feeling and not dismissing all that you are feeling and going through – you will get to that big arse pot of gold… and man it will be glorious.
Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx