Resentment is a nasty nasty beast. It can start to show in so many subtle areas of your life that you may not even realise it is there and is what is causing you issues, that it is the underlying problem keeping you small.
It can be little things you resent, to big massive life changing events that you just cannot comprehend or begin to process. You have every right to feel it, as some things are just too big to ignore, or keep repeating till you can no longer fathom wanting to do anything.
The problem is though, once you allow it free reign in your body and mind – it becomes this black cloud, this black worm that wriggles its way into your very being and starts blackening everything around it. Hardcore imagery right, but so very true. Do you really want that beast getting around doing this?
Now here is the killer, while the situations may have been out of your control, had nothing much to do with you – the list goes on and on. The fact that you are letting it live inside you is absolutely up to you! It is within your control to snap a leash on that beast, to banish it into the dungeon that it came from, to not give it power and control over you.
Why are you letting it live? What purpose does it serve? You really need to ask yourself some tough questions that are not going to be pleasant to deal with, you may have to relive some big events that take you back to where it first wriggled its way in. But if you really love yourself, and are really ready to tackle stuff lying in your path to freedom, it is a must.
Just remember, those situations didn’t harm you back then, so reliving them now, they are not going to harm you, instead they are going to free you to soar to new heights. Write or talk it out. Stomp out all those feelings, big and small that it made you feel back then. Check out what lessons it may have had for you and what you can recognise now, as the curious observer. Then most importantly – feel it lift from your body, your heart and your soul. You do not need to carry this anymore dear one. You really don’t.
All of what you have been through, has made you into the magnificent person you are today. So even if you feel there is nothing of benefit in those moments that have passed, there is always that. And yes there may be some hiccups you need to work through, but that is the beauty of this human life, working on you to grow, to evolve and ultimately be free of things that tie you down.
Why let what has affected you in the past, torment your future. I can assure you that those that were participants in your stories, are in no way thinking on what they did, or how they played a part. They are not letting it affect them in any way, shape or form – so why are you letting it affect you? How would you feel if they knew just how much power they still had over you, how much power you have given them willingly due to these moments in time.
It is not saying any of it is right, it isn’t but holding yourself back there time and time again, is not right either. Stand up for yourself and let it go. Pull up your adult pants, lay the diaper down and start to take an active role in your recovery from resentment.
It is hard, it is tough but it is oh so worth it to know that you can look back on crap and not feel that burning hatred of resentment, burning a hole in your soul.
You really do have the power to stop that, to not resent every small thing that happens, to evolve habits that resentment has borne.You have the ultimate power in not letting it poison you anymore.
You do not need to search, just sit quietly and say resentment, ask to be shown it. Ask where it sits in the body, what habits it is feeding. And go from there. You are not alone in this, you can ask for divine guidance and you can reach out to anyone that you feel can help you on this back from resentment journey. Ultimately though, you can have all the hand holders in the world, but it is up to you to do the work. Ask your spiritual pit crew to help you let it go. Do a ceremony – whatever feels right for YOU. But seriously let that shit go.
Are you ready??
Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx
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