When I was doing a beginners spirituality course with the Super J, one of the subjects we touched on was connecting with your soul guide – that wonderful light being who has been with you since birth. Now while I always knew we had guides, angels etc. and remember talking to my ‘imaginary friends’ when I was younger, the thought of connecting with my own soul guide, had my Ego standing at attention, defending its spot as my right hand man.
I was told mine had a beautiful grandmotherly warm feeling to her that sounded beautiful but still I was resisting (or Ego was resisting more to the point). We were encouraged to begin talking to them and try to connect with them. Asking them to step into our energy and so forth to begin that connection and knowing how to tell it was them…
I SUCKED!!!!! I could not get myself out of my head, and the more I forced it, the worse it became. Ego was definitely in control and resisting this most beautiful connection.
Super J had a one on one session with me to try and connect with her. One and half hours later, and I still wasn’t getting anywhere, apart from shaky and panicky. Super J managed to calm me down and got me to let go and finally…. A tickling through my hair and down my arm that made me giggle and lighten up which is exactly what she was after! Then the most overwhelming feeling of unconditional love poured over me that caused tears to rain down my face before I even knew I was moved to shed them!
Now I’d like to say that from here on out, me and my soul guide were like two peas in a pod… but no, Ego was still hanging in there quite nicely and the connection was still not hugely there, and I wasn’t taking the time to strengthen it.
I was told to try and find her name out and kept getting Mother Mary over and over again. As you can imagine Ego jumped all over that one and scoffed and said there was NOOOO way it can be that, so I ignored my instinct and forgot about it.
It was when I began my mentoring sessions with Super J that things began to change. I realised that the tickling feeling on top of my head that I was feeling all the time was indeed my soul guide and not some annoying unseen bug I could never find. I mentioned the Mary name that I had been getting as a bit of a joke, and wouldn’t you know it, Mary is her name!!! She had been using Mother Mary to really try and grab my attention (not that it helped with Ego on board).
Once I had a name and Super J’s homework to do, something deep inside shifted and the connection was on as Ego was forced to take a backseat way back in the trunk.
I was very dedicated and started my one hour weekly sessions with Mary where I would sit, do my protecting rituals and start. I found it easier to get her to pull an oracle card as that seemed to get the ball rolling, and then I would auto write anything she wanted to tell me.
It was during these sessions that other guides starting popping out of the woodwork, but more on them later!
Now it seems like Mary is just a part of me, much like my hair or skin. I don’t need to sit down and concentrate to connect and get information like I used too, it’s now an automatic part of me that just happens, unless Ego is having a control day, then it can be a little harder but not impossible. I will still sit down if I need answers or feel the need but I am learning to listen to all of them on a daily basis.
It is the most amazing feeling in the world to know and have your guides standing by your side giving you love and unconditional support in whichever way you need it. My spiritual skills have greatly increased as I learn from them, listen to them and reconnect back in with my inner light.
Have you met your guides? How do you connect with your guides if you do? I would love to hear your stories!
Don’t stress if you are finding it hard, just know it will come!
Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx