The many sides of me

walk water

As I am sitting here pondering, as I am known to do, I really feel there are many aspects of me that I show the world, but rarely the whole me. There is the financial savvy professional mortgage broker, there is the spiritual me, and there is the daughter, the friend, the goof, the good girl, the victim and so on. I feel like a chameleon as I adapt to my surroundings and how I feel I should be.

I never really thought I was anything at all like my star sign (Gemini) but now that I am consciously thinking on this subject – I realise that with all the many ‘faces’ I wear, that yes I am indeed like my star sign.  Although I sometimes feel more like a quadruplet than a twin at times!

I realised it was my own fears and insecurities making me behave this way, they may not like me if I am funny and loud, they may judge me if I show my spiritual side to the world, they may think I am stuffy and so forth. The endless possibles could sink a ship if I let it. It all came back to that lovely Ego paranoia.

Today though, I am standing in my own power. And presenting my whole self to the world and not just what I think they want to see and what I want to possibly show them. I am not hiding myself anymore as it was only hurting me and allowing me to think there was something wrong with me, keeping me unknowingly stuck in that vicious victim cycle . Don’t get me wrong, I am not going to start sprouting off spiritual words of wisdom to my financial clients or vice versa as there is a time and a place for everything. And sometimes the adapting chameleon will come in handy. But from today I am going to just be me…

The girl with tattoos, the girl who loves older music (early 90s and older please), the spiritual me that is growing each day, the professional business owner, the goof who is extremely klutzy and stupid at times, the potty mouth, the list goes on, but instead of sinking me this time, I am going to embrace ALL of me and let it lift me up so I can walk on that water instead.

What do you hide and only show to certain people?  Are you going to keep denying your whole self, or are you going to join me and we’ll walk on water together?

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx

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11 comments

  1. susiemorley · October 24, 2015

    Oh I just love this blog. I feel almost obligated to change who I am to help make everyone around me feel more comfortable and not judge who I am.
    I am suffering and feeling very insecure about myself and who I am!
    We are all different in our own way. I do not judge another for being different than the so called ‘normal’ therefore they should not judge me.
    If I can’t be faithful to me and who I am, then why would anyone else be. Time to trust in myself and hopefully others will follow, and if they don’t…. Stuff em haha x

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    • yellowwolf80 · October 24, 2015

      Just be you lovely – cos you are AMAZING and screw everyone who doesn’t think so. Be proud to be who you are, every single facet of you, good and bad – they all make you YOU!!!! Get out there and walk water with me 🙂

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  2. mystic gitana · November 14, 2015

    Great post, keep up the great spirit!

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  3. Eddie Two Hawks · November 14, 2015

    Deep down inside you, the magical spirit grows
    Thank you very much for following. Eddie

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  4. Amitav Chowdhury · November 27, 2015

    This is an excellent post. Very insightful. I guess we all have different facets in our personality, some of which we never show or they become gradually known to people we are close to. Our whole life we keep figuring who we are, trying to understand our feelings and emotions (which perplexes us at a personal level). In a way, we are brought up with the socially acceptable behavior too, and that plays a huge role.

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  5. Srishti Walia · November 27, 2015

    Oh this post is so relatable. Although I am not a Gemini but still the idea that there is no wholly one of my persona is so true.

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  6. Lynz Real Cooking · December 1, 2015

    Very nice to be you! as we all should be!

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  7. dray0308 · February 23

    Reblogged this on Dream Big, Dream Often and commented:
    This is Aria-Bella Rises!

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  8. fearlessinjesuschrist · February 23

    Great post!. I took a personality test at one of my jobs several years ago. And the questions were geared toward finding who you are in different circumstances. Home, work, play. It’s very interesting to find out how I react to things differently depending on situations. It helped me to realize that I needed to be true to myself in all circumstances. I think in the past I have hidden how isolated and lonely I feel. Now I try to hide how multiple sclerosis really affects me day to day. I feel I have to be strong as the caregiver for my mother.

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