As I am sitting here pondering, as I am known to do, I really feel there are many aspects of me that I show the world, but rarely the whole me. There is the financial savvy professional mortgage broker, there is the spiritual me, and there is the daughter, the friend, the goof, the good girl, the victim and so on. I feel like a chameleon as I adapt to my surroundings and how I feel I should be.
I never really thought I was anything at all like my star sign (Gemini) but now that I am consciously thinking on this subject – I realise that with all the many ‘faces’ I wear, that yes I am indeed like my star sign. Although I sometimes feel more like a quadruplet than a twin at times!
I realised it was my own fears and insecurities making me behave this way, they may not like me if I am funny and loud, they may judge me if I show my spiritual side to the world, they may think I am stuffy and so forth. The endless possibles could sink a ship if I let it. It all came back to that lovely Ego paranoia.
Today though, I am standing in my own power. And presenting my whole self to the world and not just what I think they want to see and what I want to possibly show them. I am not hiding myself anymore as it was only hurting me and allowing me to think there was something wrong with me, keeping me unknowingly stuck in that vicious victim cycle . Don’t get me wrong, I am not going to start sprouting off spiritual words of wisdom to my financial clients or vice versa as there is a time and a place for everything. And sometimes the adapting chameleon will come in handy. But from today I am going to just be me…
The girl with tattoos, the girl who loves older music (early 90s and older please), the spiritual me that is growing each day, the professional business owner, the goof who is extremely klutzy and stupid at times, the potty mouth, the list goes on, but instead of sinking me this time, I am going to embrace ALL of me and let it lift me up so I can walk on that water instead.
What do you hide and only show to certain people? Are you going to keep denying your whole self, or are you going to join me and we’ll walk on water together?
Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx