Adrift in my Ego Human self

I have been,for the last week or so, allowing my Ego or my human side as I like to call it run the show. I seemed to have forgotten that strong ever loving spiritual side of me that can get through anything and instead let old reprogramming come up and seize the day. Panic attacks, low vibes, unworthiness, the list is pretty endless, have all snuck in while I sat back on the couch and allowed it. Starting the old ‘woe is me’ victim soundtrack (cue the violins).
I kept getting whispers and nudges from my guides and angels, but at first I was too far gone in struggling against it all that I refused to listen.

Then all of a sudden during each bout of nastiness, I stopped. And I listened. Really listened to what they were trying to tell me. I’d bless and thank what was happening to me but I was firm in saying that it was no longer necessary. I called upon my soul guide (the light being who has been with you since birth) to give me some of that unconditional love that she is so great at dishing out and makes you feel like your wrapped in the best hug of your life (because it is). I called upon those guides that I know can help me lift what I was feeling and heal what they needed to. I called on AA Michael to take away the fear and cut any cords that were helping to create this and after I felt a bit more at peace and had put Ego in its jar (quite literally in my mind) I truly listened to the messages this situation was giving me…

That it’s okay, to not fight against it and just thank and bless it.  Although they wouldn’t wish this on me any longer than needs be- and over half a lifetime is certainly long enough, it has been a great learning curve for me, a challenge to see if I’d let the old ways rule me again (which I did for a time) and for my guides to learn more on how to help in these situations, now that I’ve created a deep connection with them. It’s shown that I have moved forward on my path and that all the hard  work I’d been putting in to myself was paying off otherwise why would it feel the need to try and choker hold me to my old way of being? And lastly…

This is my Egos last ditch attempt to keep me stuck right where it wants me, because we all know Ego doesn’t want you to be happy, Ego doesn’t want you to evolve into your true spiritual self. It doesnt want you to do anything positive because then it wouldn’t rule you like it does now.

But you know what Ego, our long-term toxic relationship is over. Yes I know there will be times I cross over to the dark side but I will be able to stand strong and not let it defeat me and rise quickly when it happens. I will follow my heart and soul and spiritual path because it is time! No more excuses!!

It is most important that you don’t beat yourself up over being  ‘human’ as your playing into the victim card.  Just accept that a side shuffle has occured, a little two step of oops that will give you great lessons and insight if only your willing to look for them. Rather than focus on the negatives, look for those positives- they will be there I promise.  And as soon as you can, dust yourself down and keep doing the tango we call life. You are not alone in this. And when the going gets really tough, remember each morning is a chance to start again, a new beginning . Are you going to let it be full of the same old, or are you going to spread those wings and fly? I know I am.

Till next time… keep walking your spiritual path xx



  1. Jess · October 13, 2015

    Beautiful, honest and from the heart! Love your writing and sharinfgof YOU!!

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Palmina · October 13, 2015

    All I can say is; ‘I love you!’. This has touched every part of me and truly inspired me. Thank you for sharing your angel wisdom with us ❤ Keep doing what you're doing! xxx

    Liked by 1 person

    • yellowwolf80 · October 13, 2015

      Thank you lovely. I hoped by sharing my ‘downs ‘ it would help others so that means ALOT!!


  3. susiemorley · October 14, 2015

    Amazing words and great reminder to ask guides for help when we need it x

    Liked by 1 person

  4. candyego88 · November 10, 2015

    I needed to hear this today. Thank you. So glad for you sharing. Xx

    Liked by 1 person

    • yellowwolf80 · November 10, 2015

      Most welcome! Funny how the right thing comes your way when you need it


  5. Kristen · November 16, 2015

    It’s good to know I’m not the only one who has struggles just like this. Sometimes Ego will take over (I always think to myself that she fights tooth & nail to keep me in a negative place) & I find that I’m on the couch without any motivation to do anything. Thankfully, these days I’m snapping out of those moments a lot quicker & they don’t come as often. I’m so glad I came across your blog<3


    • yellowwolf80 · November 16, 2015

      Oh yes that chattering monkey will do anything to keep you in that negative space for sure! Don’t worry I’m the same, so glad you are snapping out of it quicker though! Thank you and I’m so glad to have you here!


  6. dray0308 · April 29, 2017

    Reblogged this on Dream Big, Dream Often and commented:
    Aria-Bella Rises!


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